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you don't have to believe me anymore, really.
we'll never be together ever again, or at least you'll never take me back.
i fucked things up.

we've gone through so much and now it's all over cause i was so fucking stupid.
i want to forget everything.
i don't even know how to put my thoughts into words right now.
it sucks, i really am fucking sorry.
I miss the kids.
I miss TImmy and Charis, and their silly jokes, random actions, annoying laughter.
I miss the ride out from Barrage, when Timmy decided he did wanna sit with me.
It brought us even closer, even stronger than ever.
We were so happy then, they made us happier.
And we were doing just fine on our own.
No unnecessary arguments, just healthy ones.
The ones couple have all the time, but we always have a good laugh at the end.
Everything was smooth,
And i had to screw things up, so bad.


I wish to see you, and the kids. i wanna bring them out to LJS i wanna let them have all the fun.
and i wish my things are still with you. i wish to still mean something to you.
i've kept my hands in my pocket each time i felt like punching the walls.
today i gave it all that i've got.
for everything that happened tonight, i have every right to do so.
do you know what it's like when you're so fucking lost and no one's around to pick you up,hold your hand and tell you it's gonna be alright?
one day you will.
you know how everytime, every single bit of that person you once loved so fucking much comes to mind.
everything you remember,good and bad, comes pouring like a never ending river.
and when you want someone but you won't do anything, and they come to you instead.

fuckmylife and do the ronald macdonald insanity dance.

Aug. 25th, 2010


SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

TRUE NOT
i should just die.

I'm Lost.

.
if everything ends tonight, i've made up my mind.

if i don't get my august intake, i'll drop out of october intake.
i'll give up photography as a future. it'll just be another toy.
i'll kill myself inside. cause i'm no longer real.
and i don't know how to love.
"Oh wells. At least I know, when I need some comfort and just a little break away frm shit and stuff, there's still one more pair of arms that I can run to."

no i'm not fucking cool with this shit.
not one fucking bit.
bad start to my saturday. thanks.

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